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Since I last saw you
Since I last read your letter
Since I last sent you a letter
I wish I could
Have said more
Than what I have
If maybe the time
Was kinder
Maybe it wouldn’t take a decade
To write this for you
Nevertheless,
The names that we gave each other
Were sweet
So naive
You could tell
That we were kids
Experiencing love
In its truest form
YELLOW was the color
Of the school bus I rode when
I realized
I had loved you
SEVEN days
For me to deny that I could
Ever fall
For someone like you
But much like anything in our childhood
That love was gone
Swept under the rug
By me
If maybe I knew
That loving you was worth
Putting my name on the chalkboard
Together with the other delinquents
I would have written my name over and over
Every now and then,
I hear your name
Uttered in the small crevices
In the streets where I least expect
To hear it
Sometimes I was convinced that you haunted me
But maybe that’s what I get
For praying every day
As a child on a church pew
To have you as my soulmate
It has been a decade
But my love for you
Transcends my time on earth
For you were my first
No.
You were the first to love me.
And I wish I loved myself enough
To love you more
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